May 29th

Tuesday

Things are actually getting better. Holy shit.

I was talking to S over the phone about my "after mental hospital experience". I've been hyper-aware of what stimuli causes what reactions in my body. It's amazing. For instance, when I think about sexual things, I play with my hair. When I'm nervous, I clear my throat a lot. I can't think of anything else right now, but things are so much clearer...I feel so much more like myself. I just can't cry, for some reason.