June 3rd

Sunday

I'm feeling better. Yay. I'm actually going to call Lindamood-Bell tutoring and see if they'll still give me an interview. I really want to get back into life and work full-time ASAP. I'm bored silly. I'm fat. Actually, funny thing is, at my very thinnest, when I wore a size 5, I weighed 128. Now, I weigh 129 and a half, and I'm fat! I must've been pretty muscular back then to account for the extra pounds. Amazing.

I'm done worrying about S. What will happen will happen, whether I worry or not, so I choose not to worry. Instead, I'm being very tidy. I cleaned the bathroom. I painted my toenails Revlon's Vixen. I asked my dad to take me to Sawgrass Mills Mall tommorow so I can look at business suits at the BCBG Max Azria outlet. I'm very much into business suits now. I want something light tan, black or gray, something very urban and cute. They run from $200-$500 a suit, so I can get, like, ONE. The XOXO suits are considerably cheaper, about $100 a suit, sometimes less, but the material is usually rough polyesther and it looks cheaper.

So, I'm bored and restless which is good cause it means I'm back to health, I just can't drive yet, but I'm calling Dr.Greener tommorow and I'm sure he'll give me the green light. (I didn't even intend that pun, but there it is. Ha ha.)

I'm back to working out-- a little bit, back to drinking diet Coke (ugh! I know, it's horrible, I vow to stop), back to going on the computer for obscene amounts of time, back to eating low fat food, but eating lots of it. I think Paxil makes you hungry, I don't know. I just want to eat non-stop ever since I've been on it.

You know, I gotta say, I'm a little hurt that I originally gave this url to about 20 people, and only about FIVE asked for the password to access it now. Am I THAT boring to read, or that unpopular nowadays? Not that I don't appreciate you five out there. I do. Thanks.